#3. Metade-metade/Half-half

[Versão em português abaixo&this week’s illustration in the end of the post]

 

And so it is: we’re not halves of anything. Half man/half woman, half-day and half-night, half shadow/half light. The very same in and outside, sun moving across seasons. If we could measure (second by second) the hours of the year, do you think we would have it exact half-darkness/half-bright?

At least we’d have to exclude those gray zones, leave the undefinable aside. Forget sunrise and twilight. And the stars – would they be black or white? Dead and living, pieces of past, the best is to accept: both. Like an open question that does not need to be solved. Anger and love do rest here, in the same chest. Floating words, infinite ways of loving and uncountable manners of not.

Let us not resolve anything, then, let us evade any definitions to simply come like that: incomplete, impossible, ever lacking something, always being too much. Me and you, us and all the like.

Let us make a stitch and join the middles right there where nothing fits together. Let us just rest upon a cushion of imperfection, fly away. There’s never been any half-half.

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Alguém que finalmente chega em casa: acordei com uma sensação de vida completa às oito da manhã. Tinha amor, raiva, querer fugir e medo de chegar o próximo dia. Os bonitos e os terríveis nascendo e morrendo nas costelas da minha casa vazia numa quinta-feira de janeiro.

Na paz das coisas não resolvidas, faltava a asfixia da resposta. Repare: nada nunca pediu pra fazer sentido. O que restou foi fazer uma costura. Rasgar páginas e distorcer fronteiras. Afrouxar o peso da fantasia absurda: serenidade, harmonia, felicidade é tudo palavra comprida. Me dá preguiça até de pronunciar. Melhor é esquecer equilíbrios. Deixar tudo ser e juntar partes bem ali, onde nada em dia nenhum vai conseguir formar uma. Nasci pra ser inteira pela metade.

 

#3.HalfHalf
#3. Half-Half (nanquim, aquarela e costura; 2016)
#3.HalfHalf_UpsideDown
#3. Half-Half (nanquim, aquarela e costura; 2016)

 

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